Over the past few days I've been feeling extra nostalgic. I'm not sure what brought it on, perhaps the idea of starting the next phase of my life has made me reflect on the last one. My college days were full of some amazing times with amazing friends. I have very few regrets in my life and I love looking back at the thousands of pictures and laughing at all of the good times that were had. It amazes me how much life has changed since then. I never thought life would take me where I am now. I never thought I'd leave So Cal.. yet here I am living in the Bay Area doing a job I always said I didn't want to do. I guess life had other things in store for me than I could have ever expected. A good friend of mine told me that I've had to endure more than most people will go through in a lifetime and that life would make up for it with some amazing memories. So far so good on that promise.
In addition to reliving some of the amazing memories from the last 8 years (holy shit I feel old) since high school I can also see a progression of my size. Over the last few years I've taken very few pictures because I've been embarrassed about how much bigger I've gotten. Call it the "relationship" comfort weight and what have you but its definitely not something I'm happy with. Future Husband and I have had bouts of motivation where we get back to the gym and start eating healthier but inevitably it's been an ongoing struggle. Since we moved to the Bay and are living on a single income now we've finally got most of our bad eating habits in check. We eat at home almost all of the time, I take my lunch to work (well 90% of the time anyway) and we've started exercising again. I've been going to the gym here at our apartment complex pretty inconsistently over the last 8 months. Some months have been good.. 2 to 3 times a week... and some not so good. I've lost about 20 pounds since July which although a good start I could be doing much better. My goal over this next year as I prepare for this wedding is to be more consistent with my exercise. I know I need to be healthier and now I have more motivation than ever to get it done. My goal is not to just lose weight for the wedding but for us to be healthier together. We both want kids someday and we want to be able to keep up with them! Feel free to harass/comment/message me and keep me in check. I'm sure there will be good weeks and bad but my ultimate goal is 75 pounds in a year. I know its a big one but anyone who knows me knows I'm pretty stubborn and I HATE losing so let the soreness begin!
Until next time...
:D I know what you mean about being embarrassed about the weight gain and avoiding pictures because of it. I more or less do the same thing.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck on your weight loss adventure! 75 pounds in a year is a big commitment - but I really hope to see you do it. Maybe I'll join you in the event, and we can compare weekly diet schedules and update pictures.